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Buzzing

Wheels humming

The machine keeps running

The system never stops

The lights are never off

How do you do it?

A pink sky

A blind eye

They do not see

The same as I

To some it's paradise

To me it's a lie

I cherish the moments

The high times

Memories of hope

Ideas and dreams

in this place

You'll easily forget

A fresh start

Easily went stale

Inspiration

Killed by desire

I didn't realize

Phases expire

A child came

A man left

This city robbed me blind

Consider it grand theft

Came with an illusion

Left with a delusion

Thanks to you

I am somebody you'll never know

And I truly appreciate it

The city that was once a dream

Is the city I want to leave

Bittersweet...

Gaaagghhh

Strange dreams

Scattered emotions

Looking for something

Without any notion 

I have an idea

Let's climb the ocean

Shattered desires

Weak impulses

A breath of fresh air

A lady so fair

Eyes like stars

Jet black hair

Place where you leave your shoes

Is where you are home

The years go on

But the days pass slow

A life on the road

A life all alone

Never lonesome when I'm by myself

Whenever you're around

I start to miss you

The times we've had

The times we've shared

Drunk on the memories

Perpetual Motion Machine

Sitting

Thinking

Dreaming

Believing

Loving

It's crazy

The end 

Is the beginning

Is it anything?

When you stop

I start

The wheel keeps turning

The force of gravity

Riding everything

But the unseen

The air

The Gods

Emotions

Im not ready

You've already finished

I'm on my way

Where are you going?

My action

Causes your reaction

An infinite chain

An eternity of life

The music never stops

Only physically

Your thoughts

Your beliefs

Pushing the button

To start the motion

Breathing the air

That our ancestors once breathed

Recycling the world

One day at a time

Knife Games

Sharpen your knife

Spread your fingers

Wipe your eyes

Try not to cry

Time to grow up 

Time to fly

Talk about your dreams

I don't believe in them

Overdose on music

It could never kill you

Make love

Make bombs

Play with fire

Suffer the consequences

Play with ice 

Brain freeze

Join the club

You're already a part of it

No use in fighting

You've already lost

Make the best of what you need

Forget how to bleed

Give me your lies

That's how I feed

Soft skin

Rubbing against

Rough skin

Happy congratulations

Everybody fucking wins

Move on

Play it loud

Sing along

The pain will numb

You won't feel the next blow

Bring it on

Play with knives

Deserted Madness

For me 

For me

The desert is free

For me 

For me

The place to be

The heat is dry

The sun is bright

Cactuses look friendlier

In the silver shine

Of the moon at night

Oh, what a life

Something tells me

I'm not alone

Visitors are watching

From up above

A desert rose

For the one I love

Space in the heavens

And Space below

It's just me and you, pal

There's nowhere to go

Stars become diamonds

More precious than gold

Take a deep breath

The air is pure

The middle of the night

Not a soul stirs

Peace of mind

Better than any cure

The desert has no friends

It has no enemies

It keeps your secrets

It kills you softly 

You'll want to leave

You'll love her madly

Q&A

Give me the answer

I'm not looking anymore

Say it to my face

You're becoming a bore

Tell me your fantasies

Tell me some more

I've lost my patience

Awaiting quietly in the shadows

It's been far too long

I'm diving head first into the world

Like a new born

Tell me everything you know

Anger and fury

The eye of the storm

Eat my misery

With a spoon or with a fork

I want it no more

Make a line, have a snort

Deranged

My marbles are lost

The bag ripped open

Read it twice, thrice

Four times

Five

Heavy riff

A cool swing

Beat the drum slowly

Entering

"Hello world"

Yelling

Soeaking in actions

Words are useless

Give me and answer

To the millions of questions

That run in circles

Inside my head

Gone Fishing

Rolling in bed

Can't sleep

Tired 

But can't dream

I close my eyes

And count up sheep

The motor is humming

Brain is numbing

Back and forth through my mind

Behind a cigarette

I can't find the thought

That will let me rest

Deep breath

Long sigh

Looking out the wet window

At the dark sky

Raindrops sooth 

But I still can't snooze

Tell me a story

Of unicorns and fairies

Nah, fuck that

Tell me a bloodcurdling memory

An eerie fable

Of ghosts, murderers, and crazies

Down a long deserted road

I find peace in woe

I think of the lovers

That left me alone

My eyes never close

Hoping for hope

I park the truck

Boots stomp on the ground

Walking towards the river

I cast out my rod

I sit and ponder

Gone fishing

Peter Paray

Miserably happy

Finding peace 

In loneliness

He doesn't trust anyone

To bring him happiness 

They don't know what he wants

He's taking over

For better or for worse

One thing is for sure

He can do it 10 times better

20 times faster

And 100 times longer

His driving force...

He doesn't know

His ultimate dream..

Isn't real

He's fulfilling a purpose

That doesn't exist

Drinking away 

the part of the day

That he cannot sleep away

Old broken memories

Shattered dreams

He's Peter Paray

His insides grumble

Something is stirring 

His ideas are bubbling

In heaven

Everything is fine

Everything is alright

His days become short

His nights are long

He watches the sun set

And sleeps through the sun rise

Peter is a failure

And that's how he likes it

Party Animal

Bring the rain

Bring the thunder

Bring me the roar

That comes from down under

Bring the beauty

Bring the wonder

The call of the wild

The animal within

I want to be up all night

Watching the lightning

I don't care

Il wait for eternity

A sign of life

He calls your name

Don't be scared

It's only a game

Tell me your fears

Tell me your pain

He breathes through his ears

He speaks through his nose

He has no mouth

He has no clothes

He is what you don't understand

He is everything you show

Rememberies

How'd we get here?

Neighbors born in mash potatoes 

A cold can

In cold weather

Remember the fire

Feel it's warmth

We talked about nothing

We froze time

We burned boredom

We needed more fire

We continued to drink

We continued to smoke

Remembering the good

That was long forgotten

Forgetting the bad

We remembered for far too long

A shiver down your spine

Sit closer

Listen carefully

I'll only say it once

Time passes

Phases come and go

Flick the memory away

Pick it up later 

The shimmering lights on the water

"So long"

Say it to the holidays

See you next year

I have no fear

I'm waiting 

A loud buzzing sound

Is it just me?

A load roar

Is it my stomach?

It's all in my head

Rememberies

Sing Me A Tune

Close your eyes

Dream 

Baby girl 

You're all I see

Love at first sight

You're all I feel

Give me some warmth

At this rate

I'll freeze 

Be my blue Sunday

I'm looking for love

A state of mind

Where are you?

My eyes are open

My soul is broken

Are you waiting?

I'm sitting

Smoking

Choking

I can't breath

The race is dying

Shivering

Naked, looking blue

Come to my door

I'll make you real

I'll make you true

1,2,3,4,5,6

Counting

Until I'm sick

Laying in bed

How many stars?

I'm lost

Nerve wrecking

I hate myself

Can you love me?

I sure can't

Tell me I'm good

Tell me I can't

I love you 

Taste of the Forbidden Fruit

I pushed you away

It'll never be the same

Like that first date

Sparks flew 

ignited a forest

We watched the flame

A strange sound

A grumble in my intestines 

I screamed for your love

I pushed aside my pride

You screamed back

But you lied

Funny the way it works

You wiggled your way back

Far too many times

But when I try to wiggle myself in

You tell me it's a lie

And leave me to die

I pushed you away

It'll never be the same

Like that first date

Sparks flew 

Ignited a forest

We watched the flame

The trees crumbled with the rain

The thunder eased my brain

My feet soaked in the water

Erased all the pain

It hurts to say your name

But I'll never regret a day

Truth is

You drive me insane

So I can't complain

I was once told

"Never like her too much"

It always ends in vain

King

He's the man

With the light

With the gold

Shining armor for all his soldiers

A throne made of steel

Heavy, for no one to steal

He is no wise man

But he is wiser then all men

He is not strong

But nobody will look at him wrong

He is not smart

But no one dare, against him start

A ruler of worlds

Of planets and stars

To look him in the eyes is death

To be in his presence

Is life itself

He does not need reason

Intake 

Outlet

To him, you are a mouse

But he is no elephant

He is the mouse hole

He is the house hold

riches don't make him happy

Neither does happiness

His every wish

Is your command

His every desire

Is your dream

Welcome to my world

A king with a sword

The power of music

And his powerful word

He is the law

And he is the herd

All Apologies

A familiar song 

A reminder of the forgotten

A deleted memory

Of someone you love

Waiting for fate

Maybe it will never come

A strong desire

To love and be loved

But is this it?

How can you be sure?

How can you know?

We can only wonder

Is it the anger?

Is it the bliss?

Is it the happiness?

Is it the jealousy?

Is it the sex?

Maybe it's all of it

Deleted messages

Deleted numbers

waiting for you

Waiting for the ultimate sign

The sun

The warmth 

All I do is hope

Finish your task

Suck his dick

Jack him off

Make him come

Then come to me

Sick twisted thoughts

Will you come back?

Will I accept you?

I want you

I love you

Come back 

Forgotten Feelings

Effortlessly

Slipping into grief

Solitude 

Momentary bliss

Eternal flames

Light up the sky

Not a single regret

But a mistake that shouldn't of happened

A long road of memories

Which he wished were different

A new age is coming

An old one is left behind

A time for change

For the better

To see new faces

To finish new races

Out of breath 

He stares at his feet

Old habits never die

New ones come to life

The air he breathes is salty

His tongue swells up

He cannot speak

His imagination flies

Trapped in a jar

The lid is on tight

He informs her of his love

And then forgets

She doesn't want him anymore

It's not something he'll regret 

Erased her number

Erased her card

He got what he bargained for

The feeling was alive

But agin it died

And now it's worse

Abandoned Puppy

You picked me up

And gave me a home

You told me I wasn't alone

You were there too

We talked on the phone

You understood

The days flew 

The months grew

Gathered, like leaves in the fall

We made promises

Ideas we thought we'd keep

They were just misunderstandings

Words we'd forget

They came out our mouths

Like shit from an asshole

A big pile of bullshit

To ferment and grow into landscape

A picture we hang in our hallway

Old and senile

We'll remember our youth

I'll think of you

The one i ALWAYS knew

You were me

I was you

You make me sad

You make me blue

Your favorite color, it's true

I remember all your facts

But you never knew

I could never have you...

As easily as you picked me up

You put me back down

What seemed like eternity

We're only seconds, a few

I walked away, looking back for a sign

You never looked back, you never cared..

The Past

The rain was coming down slow

He was blowing clouds of smoke

His time was now, here

It was late

It was early

He still wasn't home

They weren't waiting

They were waiting for him to leave

He didn't want to be there

He wanted to vanish

To the land of the forgotten

Where he could be a ghost 

His head hurt

His stomach roared

His face behind a cigarette

His heart soared

The bottle was 1/4 full

His mouth was dry

The rain had settled

Puddles gathered

The last drops fell from the roof

Onto the floor

Do it again!

Do it some more!

He was restless

But oh so tired

His limbs would not give up

Although he had already given in

A long long time ago

One more for the road

He finished his poem

Along with his last cigarette

Tires kept rolling

Drying the roads ahead

He watched time stroll

Into a dimension we call, the past

The Silent Tree

She grows unseen

Behind a valley of green

She watches you crawl on your knees

She watches you bleed

She stands above you

Keeping you cool in high degrees

You burned her leaves

She watched in grief

You kicked her shins

She simply grins

She won't get upset

She is wiser than you

She stands at peace

Whether alone or in threes

She keeps her integrity

Locked inside, deep

She's heard your words

Accepts your pleads

She gives you comfort

In the worst of times

When it's hot

Or when it's cold

You seem to overlook her

Even when she stands 10 feet

She looks into your eyes

But hers you can't see

She gives you a hand

But you can never reach

You take away her heart

But she can still breathe

She listens to your sorrows

Very carefully 

She understands your thoughts

But can't share her wisdom

She has no mouth

You can never hear her speak

Work

Take me somewhere nice

Somewhere in the desert

Strip me naked

Leave me bare

Hide your face

Don't look at me

The less people I see

The better I'll feel

The brighter the stars

The happier I'll seem

Don't need a lover

Just a friend that's always there

Burn into my skin

Leave my body red

Sunburnt

Your touch hurts my bones

I like the pain

I like the solitude

Going for the hundred

Where nobody is found

A million ideas run through my head

It takes tenfold to explain them

Dirty thoughts cross my mind

Tying you to my bed, blind

Be my prisoner

Be my slave

Give me your heart

Give me your name

I'm a sick twisted freak

Be my chain

Boulders on my feet

You be the body of water

Drown me in sorrow

Drown me in pity

Hate me with love

Fight me with peace 

Extra ordinary

Plain and simple

I don't care

Quick and nimble

Long hair

You think you love her

You'd love her bare

Get on your knees

Pray to Jesus

Your God is mighty

At all times he sees us

I know nothing

You don't either

A short phrase

A simple matter

A grain of sand

A clump of dirt

Fall on the ground

Your new shirt

It ain't nothin

Only material

Made of atoms

It's imperial

We're sown together

By a force unknown

You try to describe it

All you get is science

There's nothing to it

Just a set of beliefs

A system 

That keeps you comfortable

The book is written

We're turning the pages

The almighty power

Reading along to see what happens

Someone had to write it

And we were created

Lonely Vampire

Open flames

Old shirts with blood stains

A knife cuts a wound

Feelings pour out

Like waterfalls

A tree blossoms

Hissing in the distance

The humming of silent engines

He swallows his lukewarm tea

He doesn't want to go to sleep

But he doesn't wanna be on his feet

Bittersweet memories

Stay away!

Don't come near!

He makes a statement

For all the land to hear

Tell me a story

Hand me a beer

I feed on your endorphins

I get high on your blood

The sweetest revenge

Is one that naturally comes

Without any effort

He watches the world crumble

Each day is routine

It never gets old

Neither does he

He watches you bleed

He watches his brothers feed

Watches his enemies plead

You're all guilty!

Of dirty, dirty greed

He lusts for mourning

Cheating wives, wanting to be pleased

He lays in his coffin

The lonely vampire

Smoke In the Distance

Slowly drifting in the wind

The current takes me over the fence

Into the yard

Into the sky so far

Erased in eternity

Evaporated in sin

I can't think of anything else

Because your running through my head

You're the closest thing to perfect

Besides my mattress bed

I forget all my problems

You make them all red

Theories burned to ash

Dreams floating in the realm

Laughter of greedy politicians

And cries of middle class suckers

It all fades away

Nothing stays

Nothing good lasts forever

Everything goes away together

All at once

As light as a feather

If it comes to an end

There's something better

It doesn't feel right

It smells like bullshit

What could be better then this? 

I believed this to be the best

Boredom at its finest hour

The mind at its fullest power

Our lives are mathematical equations

To the infinite number

But our minds are spirits

Souls, that we call knowledge

We can't understand ourselves

So we make up words

Quick one

Suddenly

Discreetly

Do it fast

Not too hard

Hold me tight

Let me go

Don't let it stop

The train never ends

We'll fall off the track

The future is uncertain