Told

I Dont know

But I've been told

We're not the only planet

The universe 

Is shaped exactly like the earth

Go straight along

Dizzy

Lost 

Angry

Fuck!!!

I hate you

Florida

The song continues

The itching never stops

I don't want it

Take me away

Somewhere better

Some other place

I pray each day

Asking

Why did you put me here

What am I supposed to do

Alone

This life is a lie

You know

They know

He knows

She knows

We know

Who knows?

Get away

Leave me be

Stay in touch

From far away

This is crazy

What did you see?

Tired

Pissed

Frustrated

You make me sick

My own ego

I don't wanna see you

Burn

Burn burn burn burn

Your cold

Cover me again

Light the flame

I don't wanna play this game

Dream

I held her hand

Just to pretend

I guess she used me

Just to put an end

But, just then

It happened

We pretended so long

It almost felt real

She wanted it to be realistic

A kiss

Lean in

Don't miss

Who would wanna be 

such a control freak?

Bukowski

It never happened

I open my eyes

It's just a dream

What does it mean?

Am I ready?

Am I lonely?

Who can answer these questions?

Family?

Destiny?

I feel blissfully...

Who can stop it? 

Bukowski

Spitting venom 

At most everyone I know

Fuck off

Work to live

Work to survive

There is no time

To feel alive

Only to earn money

And spend it in fives

Sin-religion

Make the best
Out of the rest
Dont let them stop you
Eternal sunshine
Somethings in the way
Truly yours...

Make the best
Out of your confort zone
Under the gun
Sin-religion
Enter the realm...

Early

Im not sure
I sit here with my only friends
Some furry fellows
They dont speak much
But they love me
And I love them

I drown my sorrows
To forget my responsibilities
Just today I woke from a nap
And thought...
The man above is amazing
He allows us to wake again

Through all the bad things
That we dont thank him for
The beauty that hes given us
That we dont appreciate
Each day we don't want to live
But we're scared of whats after

He tells us things
That we don't wanna know
Instead we listen to lies
The things that shouldnt grow
Im jangling in the dark
Damn it I never wanna stop! !

No one like me
No one like you
Fucking mosquito
I dont wanna live this life
Life with no purpose
Life lived for others

No joy
No compassion
I write it as it comes
Whether it makes sense
Or not
You probably wont fucking read it

Why

The reason I do it
Its not you
Its not her
Its not them
Its not him
Its just me

For fun
For memories
For relief
For fun
For anger
For sadness

Tears fall
They never reach the ground
I watch the rain
Lightning
The tone of thunder
The way it shakes my home

What a feeling I get
As I write these words
Each letter frees my soul
Each sentence helps me grow
I look up at the sky
I watch the great rock glow

A star lights everything up
You take it for granted
But without it
Well...
Whats the use
You wont understand it

I do it cause I can
I do it to pass the time
So as I'm drinking my beer
I wont feel so alone
Sadly..
My mind has become... home

Loner

I could sit here for hours
naming the people I dont care about
I take another swig
light another cancer stick
I could sit here for hours
Doing nothing

If you give me a chance
Ill be the coolest person you know
If you think I need to approach you
Guess you missed out...
I dont break the ice.
I swim in cold water.

I respect those who deserve it
And if I dont know you
Its easy to earn it
I give all my trust
To those in need
Dont trust me? I'll watch you bleed

My head goes in circles
Back and forth through my mind
Like the White Stripes song..
I go back to the memories
That I find the most fond
The days are long..

I remember it like yesterday
Tomorrow too
That moment of joy
As I sang those songs
I cry every morning
As I sing along

That moment of joy
For only a minute
I'd give anything to live it again
I tell myself "I made the best of it"
But thats not enough
I'll try harder next time

Out of line

It makes me happy to know the man I've become... my father accepts it. My mother as well. I do what they dont like. Without them knowing.  They might get a clue but theyve never caught me. I live a lie that they'll never learn, but they've learned to accept it. I am my own man, with my own habits. Skip out of church, baptism hungover.  The smell of cigarettes stinks in the car. Dont get used to it, its only for now. The week to come seems unreal.. a dream.  Could it be? Life is beautiful, not because its perfect,  but because its imperfect, you dont know what to expect, but you know that if it's supposed to, it will. Trust in yourself, trust in the big man up in the heavens. Hes guiding, telling you what to do, without you ever knowing.  I guess you get what you give. The religion of circumstances, where you are, at what time. Whatever you're thinking,  he already knew. Your obituary has already been written, your kin are reading it, as we speak, as we think, what they will never know you thought. You cant hide it.you are the owner of your silence, and a slave to your own words